Pursuing the Hope of a Cure
At
Robyn's request, one of her intimates would read
to her every day from "The Revelation Of Ruchiradam",
Avatar Adi Da's newly-Given Essay on the ultimate,
or "Perfect", practice of the Way of Adidam. She
was drawn beyond herself by Beloved Adi Da's depiction
of the "Bright" as the White Sphere in the field
of black. She knew all about "the black", and
the process of her last weeks was the process
of finding and trusting "the Bright". I, from
my position, feeling the depth of my relationship
to her over nearly fifty years, had to endure
a similar process. She was my only sibling, and
I felt a huge dimension of my own life and mind
every experience and feeling I had shared
with her and no one else dropping away.
Each
day I visited her in her beautiful room
calm and full, and pervaded by the intimate, Radiant
feeling of Beloved Adi Da's Spiritual Presence.
In the evenings, I wrote to Beloved Adi Da about
Robyn's process physical, emotional, and
Spiritual. Then, late at night, I studied the
Ruchiradam Revelation and wrote the concluding
chapters of Adi Da, the forthcoming new
edition of Beloved Adi Da's biography. Every night,
I was immersed in Beloved Adi Da's most "radical"
Teaching about the Nature of Reality, and every
day I had to feel and live the truth of it in
life, with Robyn. There was no choice.
In
the middle of June, an alternative to the debilitating
series of lung drains was suddenly offered. Robyn's
respiratory specialist suggested the rather unusual
course of inserting a tube into the pleural cavity
that would drain constantly into a bag. This new
option made an extraordinary difference. Although
Robyn was still losing energy and protein through
the fluid, she no longer had to suffer the cycle
of temporary relief and then renewed breathlessness
every few days. Encouraged by this stabilization,
Robyn decided to move to Melbourne, in case there
was still a hope for her to participate in the
clinical trials.
She
was being wonderfully cared for at the physical
and human level by close devotee friends, and
by Dennis, her intimate. And with all this loving
support she traveled by air to Melbourne
tube, cylinder of oxygen, and all.
Avatar
Adi Da Samraj was continuing to support her potential
participation in the trials, but He saw a greater
value in her move to Melbourne. There was a larger
community of His devotees there, including close
intimates of Robyn who had been instructed by
Beloved Adi Da over many years in the sacred principles
of ashram life and in chanting and sacramental
worship. By the time Robyn arrived at the rented
apartment, her friends had prepared the place
and set up her room as a temple space. The apartment
was infused with Avatar Adi Da's tangible Spiritual
Force. Robyn had left her home of nine years,
with all of its familiarity, for a simple circumstance
where there was no distraction from the sacred
life of Communion with Beloved Adi Da. For Robyn,
the move was an entry into renunciation, and this
was pleasing to Beloved Adi Da.
Now
the life around Robyn took on a unique quality
of concentration in artfully managing the medical
side of her life (which was complex) so that it
would not interfere with her Spiritual Contemplation
of Beloved Adi Da. Avatar Adi Da was fierce for
her sake in His insistence that she deepen her
Spiritual life. He expected that we would handle
her medication in such a way that she would not
be constantly bothered by the body, so that she
could be free in her attention to go beyond body-consciousness.
Beloved
Adi Da asked for digital photographs of Robyn
to be sent every day, and He would often lay His
hands on the photographs, Blessing her with His
constant Regard.